I must be getting something or did I fall and hit my head with a rock? oh, no! Is not a rock is just love. I’m disappointed with myself, how can I be falling in love with the same person who once broke my heart?
Last Saturday he (Luis) invited Jessica, Junior, Rocio and me to eat dinner at Miami Beach; the sky was gray, and the wind was blowing cold icy air. We ate normal; I ate half of my sandwich, Jessica and I ate half of our sandwiches and Rocio took not even a bite from her plate, the boys ate like there's no tomorrow.
The boys paid the bill of course they invited, we eat and they pay. I wasn’t comfortable with them paying for me but then again I didn’t care, the five of us walked through the beach, I was disoriented and the cool breeze was clearing my thoughts and whispering; “hold your desire”. I was very close to him, I could have easily touch his hand, I was very nervous at this. We sat on that nasty sand then something happened, my eyes started to tear up, Junior noticed and asked Luis to come close to me and warm me up a little bit but as usual he refused! And "What an asshole", I thought. Their chat was extremely boring and Luis as always was pissed off ; I noticed his bad mood and went to his side, he immediately gave half a smile and started smoothing my back like a wrinkled shirt. My stomach was yelling and my heart beating so fast that I was motionless. He was feeling the same I guess because he stood up and went to the shore all alone “to feel the water” but in reality it was “to think about he was feeling” then the hours went by so fast and we finally left. But he wanted to talk so he only said to me to follow him and I did. when I turned around we were totally alone, we talked about his problems, and my problems, then he was like wishing for something to happen and so was I. I hugged him I couldn’t control my desires and he asked me why I was hugging him, I just told him he was needing one, I lied, I was the one who was needing one, then he bit me in the ear! so that was his desire….
He was feeling much cheerful with me at his side. And a question pops up at once, the famous ' what if ' ? What if we get back together? That won’t happen; not today, not tomorrow, not ever. Disappointment and sadness are in the past and... love, love will come with a new face; I hope…